Breast Cancer has invaded my body, but it need not invade my spirit. There may be scars on my chest, but there need not be scars on my heart. . . . . . Judy Kneece

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Good Days!

I'm having a very good day today. Drain came out yesterday. I don't like those at all. Can't sleep on my side at all with them in. Oncologist on Friday. I've gotten so much love, food and prayers from my friends and family. Oh, my I'm so blessed. The best part is this has shown my Mom God's face through all this. If this is all for her benefit then, it's all worth the price it has cost me.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Come on Already!!!!!

Well, my last posting I was going to have Chemo, I had a bad report from my PET Scan Results. They found 4 spots in my lymth nodes which had tested negative four weeks earlier. So, the Surgeon and Oncologist both thought it best if they were removed without further adu. So, I went in for surgery a week ago yesterday and sure enough they were cancerous. They were hoping it was going to be bruising from the first surgery but, I wasn't that lucky. Dr. Hunton said that one of the lympth nodes that he removed looked "wicked". There he goes using THAT work again. Dr. Mackey uses it alot too. Evidently my tumor and these lympth nodes are WICKED looking under the microscope. But, they were all removed along with a slugh of others as well as he scrapped around under the left arm area. And he didn't warn me how much this was going to hurt afterwards. I can usually prepare myself for pain if they just inform me of how bad it's gonna be. So, I'm taking a few pain meds with sleeping pills in order to sleep at night. Sleep doesn't come easy. Darn it, I can't even sleep during the day.

I'm thinking these spots that appeared on my lympth nodes grew from the time I had my bi-lateral Mastectomy and my PET Scan. Dr. Hunton and Dr. Mackey were both so surprised that they were there. All other Organ's Lungs, and Heart look great. So, I'm hoping Dr. Hunton will release me soon so I can get on with the Chemo already. I feel like a bump on a log, just lying around.

Thanks to all of you who have brought me food, gifts, books, cards, phone calls, prayers and most of all prayers. I just couldn't have made it this far without you and your encouraging actions. You are the best. My new Cancer friends have come out of the wood work to help me. God has send me some special people in my time of need. He knows and understands what we all need.

My Mom has been so sweet to help me all this past week. Making my bed, filling my Tea glass and Oh, do I ever have a great recipe for a Virgin Bongo Tea. I'm not gonna post it unless someone asked me to...I'm gonna see how many read my blog. It is awesome.

Thanks for your continued support. Like I was telling my friend Dee, I feel like I've Stalled out over the open ocean. Just continue to pray for me. I know you will.

God has even taken the desire to ride away for right now, cause he knows and I know that it's impossible for the time being. But, I know when the time is right he'll bring it back.

Scott is getting started on the Water Line over at the Little Place. Can you imagine. Wonder what Mamaw & Papaw are thinking? If there is worrying in Heaven (which I don't think there is) but, if there were Mamaw would be wringing her hands together right now saying "Oh my Lord What are We Gonna Do"? Well, Mamaw, it's gonna be alright and more happier times are a coming and we are going to have city water!!!!!!

Love ya all.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Getting Ready

I'm trying to anyway. Thank you to all my friends who have offered to take me to my Chemo treatments. Wow, what friends. Scott is going to take me Tuesday since it's going to be my first time. I'm praying that the side effects won't be bad and that I'll be able to drive myself there and back home. I know it's going to be long wait and I hate for anyone to have to wait that long. We'll see how it goes. Pray for side effects to be not so bad.

My Sister Chic's laid hands on me this morning in Sunday School. If you've never had that done - wow it is so powerful. Hope you never have the need but, if you do I hope you have a wonderful Christian Support System like I do. Bro. Bob's sermon this morning was so comforting and I know my sickness will glorify His Kingdom and my testimony is going to be something.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

On our way:(

Well, we went to the Oncologist yesterday and now have a game plan. I start Chemo next week. Will hit it hard every 3 weeks for 6 cycles and then continue with easier dose of Chemo for the duration of treatment that will last for a total of 1 year. So, here we go. I have a lot to do this week, blood work, heart and PET scan and on top of that we have to drive to Dallas Thursday night for a early Friday morning appointment to remove some fluid from my LapBand.

One of the awful side effects of Chemo is that I'm gonna gain weight & retain fluid. Ohhh I've worked so hard getting this weight off. But must put it off for a year while I'm on Chemo - Life first then weight.

Please pray that I will tolerate the Chemo fairly well. I know that is an oxymoron. But, one can pray for God to relieve the side effects. That's what I'm praying anyway.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


I finally have an appointment with Dr. Mackey, Oncologist, on Tuesday of next week. Now, we can get things started. So happy:) Scott has been so good to me today. I overdid it big time so he cooked me supper and now is cleaning up the kitchen. Wow, what a MAN!!!!!! I love him so.

I went to the Donald W. Reynolds Cancer Support House today and picked out a wig and got some turbans, hat and bandanna's. Wow, I was so shocked with all the stuff they have there. Counseling, quilting, library, knit & crochet, scrap booking any kind of literature on cancer you could imagine and guess what? IT'S ALL FREE. Wow, people need to utilize their services. They can get you financial help with health care. They are having a "Celebration for Cancer Survivors" Saturday and I plan on going if I can get a ride. Because I am NOT DRIVING!!!!!

The third leg of the triple crown is Saturday. Going to have a good time with family. Life is good.

Waiting & Waiting

I'm still waiting for an appointment with Dr. Mackey, Oncologist. I'm not good at waiting. I'm just so ready to get the Chemo started so I can get it over with. My incision still hurts some. I'm going to have lunch with my good friend Trish and then I'm going to go the the Cancer Support House to check things out. Looking forward to that. I've received some good handbooks on Breast Cancer, Chemo Treatments and Nutrition from our insurance companies. They have been so helpful. I had no idea that they even had such information, I thought all they did was approve or deny your medical claims. Who knew?

I'm sitting here hoping that we get some more rain this morning. We need it so. It's so dry. But this is so normal for our part of the world. So, pray for rain so we can have a good hay crop this year.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


Yesterday was such an awesome day. I got to go with Chelsea, Jesse's fiance, and her Mom to look at Wedding Dresses. Chelsea found a beautiful gown. I feel so blessed that both my Sons have found beautiful and loving girls. Beth also included me when she went searching for the perfect wedding dress. Wow, I feel so loved. My Mom has agreed to help me make a dress that I can wear to both weddings. We're going to have fun doing that together. My Mom is so good to me.

I go to the Surgeon tomorrow to get the remaining staples removed. I'm praying that they have an appointment for me with Dr. Mackey (Oncologist). I'm so ready to get this started so it will be over sooner.